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    March 06

    Apparently I 'm a bitch........I can live with that!

    At least I can say school is going smoothly. I maybe burning the midnight oil at work doing it half the time but it gets done as well as totally keeps me motivated as I am just fascinated by it and learning way too much for my brain to hold, I swear!
    With that said.....the countdown begins as my last offical day at work is the 14th; I was informed weeks ago that I was getting replaced by a security system. [meh!] It really wasn't all that surprising since the enire company is being "restructured", which means they don't really know what the hell they are doing until they find someone to fluck it all up more than it really is. Somehow they can warrant promotions and title changes for management that basically do more work with the same pay, at the same time lay off dozens of workers. I've watched so many good guys get their walking papers in the last month that the rest feel they are on borrowed time as well. Morale is low and I am kinda glad to get out of there before the whole ship sinks.
    Which brings me to my title from the loving family they always were. They are not happy that I am intitled to my mother's entire estate, which I may add includes part of my dad's {whom they never liked} also. I had to get a lawyer involved as they were seeming to gang up on me because the house my mom partly owns is being lived in by my aunt that doesn't want to leave yet cannot afford the place on her own. How's that? Oh, I think they wanted me to take over the payments so she can continue to stay. Therefore, I am said bitch, as I have my own payments thank you very much and with the anomosity I get from most of mother's family......why the hell should I? So I am forced to force her out, collect the dough and bid adieu to such a wacked out bunch! Heheheh.  There just maybe a part of me that is enjoying it-----just a little-----but we shall see because this could last for months until it is all said and done.
    February 18

    Guilt, Judgment & Forgiveness

    You may prepare yourself for times that you are coming but it is a whole other thing when it arrives and you are forced to react-----and there is nothing left. When all you remember is the ridicule,  knit-picking and judgement when there shouldn't have been any. I can't find much in myself to give into grief when all I remember are the things that were said or done/not done that crushed me in the past. When you think you've made a positve contribution in life, in general but only to find that you should've done it differently. I can't say it is relief, I can't say it is saddness, maybe it is still shock. But it does seem the rollercoaster ride I have been on with my mother finally derailed. We had too little time to arrange with our work, as Roomie was determined to go with, and book flights to B.C. in efforts to get to there in time but alas, she would've responded that I must not have done that right or quickly enough. As her stubbornness and rigidity didn't stop her from passing on the morning of Valentine's Day.
    So what do you do when it seems everything that you have done in the past and present makes you realize that as you are making choices for what you think is for the best , you realize that the thought always was: "what is she going to say about that?" Though, I never made decisions to please her, obviously, because everything I did was wrong in her eyes anyway. But I'm starting to grasp the concept of being able to be in control without being afraid to say what's going on or how I really feel because I no longer have to make excuses or answer about why I am the way I am or why I did this or that. So odd really because if it were anyone else on this earth questioning me, I'd tell them to piss off. Strange thing how family can make you feel inadequate when they are supposed to be your constant and true support system. Which brings more irony as I was told there is no point to me coming to the memorial and that all her things are being dispersed among family. Interesting how things can leave you either sitting on the sidelines as an observer but now that think about it, I think I always was.
    January 02

    ALOHA!

    For my bloggin friends that are still left. [lol]
     
    I am swimmin & smoozin & cruisin & boozin!!
     
    See ya' in a couple weeks!Wiakiki
    December 04

    I've Committed Myself......

     
    Well, maybe I really should--------------but I've signed up for 12 hours shifts at work to accummulate enough money for our 'every-2-years-trip' to Oahu,it will be our last for a while as I'm taking the plunge into going back to school to earn what I need to to begin a new course in my life. I know, I know, it's about bloody time!Open-mouthed With full support from Roomie, which I'm really going to need because who knows what the future will hold come spring. Shit seems to always hit the fan when you really don't need it; issues with my mother arise again. On a whim she moved to another province, now she's expecting me to drop everything & run there for Christmas. In so many pleasant words I said "it's not going to happen". Don't have the time nor the cash at the moment. Gritting my teeth I did invite her here but she, in so many not so pleasant words said "no way!" Of course, the whole unspoken reason was because I will not allow her to smoke in my house. Unfortunately or fortunately, with the scheduling I've sighed myself up for, christmas will come and go without a noticed for I'm hell bent on my trip before the real nitty-gritty begins. My one last harrah before I have to act like a grown up.Tongue out
    September 13

    Not Of Sound Mind & Body

     This weekend I will have to look into a solution for last weekends blunder-ah---er, problem. See, it was like this---------------I--ummm, we were sitting around chillin with a 'friend', well, a friend's friend who new this bloak. So, anyway, I am not knowing  the amount and from the varieties of empty bottles on my kitchen table who drank what, when and how much. The door was open pretty much all weekend so it couldn't have been all from us-------------right? Anyway, said friend make a crack about a  the few cracks in the tile on my kitchen floor. I didn't put it down so I am not to blame for the cracky------er crappy job; the comment lead my mouth-ta-flappin' about how I'd love to put hardwood throughout my kitchen & livingroom. Really? Well, this dude new a dude that could give me a deal on hardwood and installation. Hmmmm. It was dropped for a while as we raided the kitchen and even went for a walk. Okay,so it was to the liquor store but it still counts as exercise.  somehow we got to talking about  the flooring again and  about what needs to be done about the tiles, what wood is best and where to start etc. My wonderful, supportive shit-for-brains, Roomie stands up and drips his glass of  red wine on the carpet and says: "Let's start here."
    Now I'm thinking if it were any other day I would have kicked his sorry ass down to that big red wine spot and hand him a brush. But this day............we looked at each other, went to our respective corners and started to peel away the carpet. Has anyone ever done this? This is quite a disgusting task; I do not live in filth, I'm a bit of a freak when it comes to clean and tidy [everything better be in it's damn place!]. But this grossed me out so, that it got me more determined to get rid of that carpet. I know the carpet is old and that I am not the original owner of the house, I got critters and have had our share of traffic in & out. But to see the dusty, dirt under there with the deterioration of the backing itself and you know what 90% of dust is...........skin!! **gag--choke--barf** This realization far out did the moment I found toe nails in my vents shortly after I moved in.
    I can't tell you how long it took because somewhere in there and a bottle of wine or 2 (who's counting?) I had carpet and underlay filling my backyard and a roomful of dust & debris in the kitchen. I will confess after waking up and seeing the destruction I had to wonder if I really wanted hardwood this bad. As well as another scarey thought--------------what the hell was that guys name that said he had a buddy that could give me a deal?
    Roomie's up shit creek for a while until he can work on this problem of ours. Yeah, I know, no body held a gun to my head but well he started it {she's says with a whine} and after all he is a man, and it's always their fault!Tongue out
    The moral of this story?  Never mix wine and a tub of Coolwhip.
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
    September 04

    OOPS! I Did It Again.....................

    It was a beautiful long weekend and you better take advantage while it's here because the trees are already turning. So I jump on my bike, with beverage and snack anticipating a glorious ride down the river pathway. I got about 4 blocks from home when I slowed up as I came across a mom, dad and 'lil buddy' going the opposite way. Thinking it was all clear I started off again only to see from the corner of my eye 'lil buddy' at my left side and damn if the rug-rat didn't swerve in front of me and stop. I t-boned him. All he did was fall over on his bike but I was airbourne as my bike stopped, tangled up with his and I'm flying over the hand bars. K, so I DO remember thinking "this could be bad". Then I landed, flat out on my back; sat there a moment while lil buddy's parents scoop him up and mumble, I assume, some sort of apology in broken english. Someone asks if I need a cell phone, I'm thinking for what?? To call a fricken lawyer because my bike is done. I scrape myself off the pavement and scout around for my right shoe that seemed to have flown the coop, in fear I guess.  I see my broken water bottle and pieces of my chain guard. My gears for my bike are all f*#@ed up that I could barely walk it home. It wasn't until I started home that I finally felt my injuries screaming. Scrapes all up my left leg, my good knee was already starting to swell up, sprained my right wrist [now how am I going to flip people the bird when I'm driving?----lol] I had a slice across my ladybug tattoo on my right ankle and had to peek down my pants to see a bloody mess on my left hip. At home I see I could've been suffering a mega headache  if it weren't for my helmet , it's toast from a crack now.
    So roomie takes me to Ikea to by me lunch. LOL. Hey, you can't beat 50 cent hotdogs!!! Beside it cheers a sore body up to watch how many silly people go on spending sprees and then pull up in a little economy car and try to fit all their boxed pieces of funiture in the trunk. You can see it on their faces as soon as they back into the stall; they size up the situation but they still try. Lmfao!!! We even thought we should start taking bets on who's going to get it in one trip or who will have to come back-------sometimes with a bigger vehicle. That old commerial with the vw-bug carrying tall layers of furniture couldn't be more true. Open-mouthed
    August 28

    Sleepless

    I have bouts of insomnia that lasts a week or so before I am either exhausted enough to sleep properly or the sleeplessness has passed. I get home from work around midnight, when I finally do get to sleep,Mr. Sandman doesn't stick around. I usually wake up around 3-4am to pee, of course! Sometimes it will take a couple hours to get back to sleep---if I ever do---at least until the rat-faced-dog from next door wakes me up at 6:30 yapping its stupid fricken head off. Precious, is its name and how precious is it for crapping on my lawn every chance it gets.
    -------------------anyway--------------------
    So I'm at work last night trying to concentrate on schedules for some of the little whinny little turds you can't keep happy no matter what you do; they don't 'get the enough hours' or if they don't 'like their shift'. Babies! Suck it up, I say, just suck it up, like the rest of us! I'm reading the same page over and over when I can feel my head doing the weebles, wobbles thing. Swaying up, drifting down-------omg, it feel so good to close my eyes, though! Looooooong blinks and just waiting to hear the snort of drifting away to la-la land. I jar myself into action! I head down the corridor stop at the coffee machine and stare at the pictures that make you want a fresh cup o' joe. But I know better, the fluid that that thing spews out could melt steal. Maybe I should go up to one of the Suits' office because they usually have coffee but I decide I'll just do my rounds; yeah, that's it, I'll do the rounds. Besides I've had enough coffee which IS the cause of my nightly bladder evac at 3am. I mumble something to the guy at the front desk and get out into the brisk night air. Yes, it's damn brisk out there and it is only August. I take in a few deep breaths of the air and meander through the parking lot to the side of the building and stop to take in the beautiful twinkling lights & nocturnal activity. I hear something in the brushes beside me; how many times have I mentioned that they should have a light on this side? Thinking it could be another scruffy lookin dude looking for bottles or needing a place to pee/sleep, my hand goes to my radio{maybe it's good thing it ain't a gun, hey, Tress?} and low and behold the intruder appears.
    Wholly sh!t! It's a freakin' skunk!
    I'm thinking if I freeze the little creature, well actually he wasn't that little, could just mosey on his way and I'll mosey on mine. OR he'll  see me and let'er rip. I heard they can shoot their pungent odor like 10 feet or something like that. I wouldn't have a chance. Putrid odor it is; a few months ago lil Precious got a dose (hee-hee-hee, I had nothing to do with hiding food by their backdoor,jj) and it smelled outside for days.
    So I stand there and try to psychically pursuade him to move the opposite direction. He hobbles a bit closer, turns and disappears into the bush. I creep away slowly not removing my eyes from where I think he is. I walked a little more quickly to the safety of the front door-----I escaped! I mumbled something to the guy at the desk and made it back to my cozy little office. I was wide awake for the remainder of the shift, adrenalin, fresh air or fear whatever it was, it worked. Coffee cup
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
    August 08

    Ummmmmm

    ...............if what goes around comes around..............could I be in trouble?
     
     
    ................when I'm at work I expect to hear a laugh track in the background. 
    July 30

    Where Are All The REAL Men?

     I worked all weekend, drag my butt home, brushed my teeth & collapased on my bed at 11:30pm after being awake for over 18 hours. But a good night sleep was not to be. Party Central, across the street awoke me around  2am. This is the house that the cops visit at least 2-3 times a year because the parents find no problem leaving their 3 teenagers alone for the weekend;  it is also the same parents that will hand over the keys to the Winnebego to the teens to go 'camping' with a load of friends. Too shorten my ramblings-----the police showed up on scene as I had the phone in hand waiting for them to answer. With the 3 squad cars angled on the street, I went out to talk to the constables about what I had seen with one of the boys weilding a kitchen knife and then high tailing it between my house & the neighbors. After a half hour, things were done and I made my way back to bed. Well,  I was done with trying to get any sleep; tossed & turned for about 3 hours, read. Jumped out of bed when it sounded like it was gearing up again across the street but the troublemakers seemed to have left. It wasn't until the next morning when the neighbors slinked out of their house to talk to me about what they saw behind their safe little windows. The almost 300 lbs. guy on the one side said he saw the guy run through his backyard, "must've been hurt because there was blood on the fence"; the ex-Navy 6'5" dude on the other said he found the knife in his yard,  wrapped it up & threw it away. WTF?! So, I start speiling with these 'men'(?) about why the hell they didn't come out and talk with police the night before or inform them about what they know/saw. At the time, the police could have used their input. One just laughed, the other said he worried about retribution. Yeah, ok, so if my house burns down--I'm thinking I'm going to know who did it! Neither of these guys phoned the police in the first place. It makes me wonder that these are the same kind of people that will complain about the police not being there when they're needed yet will offer no help in their own neighborhood when dealing with insolent teenagers! I sat on my front step after, in absolute disgust at my neighbors. Baring teeth Why was I the only one to come forward on my block?And where was the person who DID phone the cops, in the first place? Nobody wants to get involved anymore because they are  so wrapped up in their cozy little lives sitting on their ass watching their big screen t.v.'s or tapping away at their computers to even care about what is going on outside their door in their own damn neighborhood!! My conscience would not let me be just a spectator with this kinda stuff; maybe it's just human nature to bury your head in the sand.
     
     
     
     
    July 12

    Re: Constable Hottie

    You've been my golden best friend, now with post-demise at hand
    I can't go to you for consolation, cuase we're off limits during this transision
    This grief overwelms me, it burns in my stomach
    And I can't stop bumping into things, I thought we'd be simple together
    I thought we'd be happy together, thought we'd be limitless together
    I thought we'd be precious together, but I was sadly mistaken
    You've been my soulmate and then some, I remembered you the moment I met you
    With you I knew God's face was handsome, with you I saw fun and expression
    This loss in numbing me, it pierces my chest
    And I can't stop dropping everything
    I thought we'd be genius together, I thought we'd be healing together
    I thought we'd be growing together, thought we'd be adventurous togehter
    But I was sadly mistaken
    Thought we'd be exploring together, thought we'd be inspired togehther
    I thought we'd be flying together, thought we'd be on fire together
    But I was sadly mistaken
     
     --------Allanis Morissette
     
    Good-bye Tim.
    June 11

    Stand Easy

    #1. My mom went to B.C to scope out condos to live in sibling bliss with her sister.She phones me a couple days later to inform me that she doesn't think she needs to really return and if I'd just pack up some of her stuff and send it to her. OH! So somewhere in between working 2 jobs, 5-6 days a week I have to find the time to pack her things?!!! WTF!!
     
    #2. Maybe I should just am-scray to the next province and hook up with my constable,  my constable....but NOooooooooooooooooo! I am too friggen responsible to leave my obligations to my house, job, animals & roomie.
     
    #3 Oh, did I give the impression I was dedicated to my job?  LMFAO!!!!!!!
     
    Things really SUCK!!!!
    June 05

    I don't get it,

    why is it just when you think everything is going good and things are running smoothly..........
     
    BAM!
     
    ......................you begin to wonder if you'll ever be happy
     
     
     
    May 11

    Oh, The Drama..... !!

    Here's to a better weekend than last. {Q. takes a shot of tequilla} 
     
    Just desserts:  I visit my mom only to see a sign out front; she has decided to sell her house and move to B.C. with her sister. 
                            I ask: "Gee, mom it was nice of you to tell me. "
                            Her reply with a laugh: "You would've found out eventually."
                            "Why all of a sudden would you decide this?"
                            She answers: "There just is anything for me here."
                            Oh! Okay, so maybe she is still pissed that I left for 7 months to seek a change or a better opportunity. So she and her sis are going to get a condo together and I predict within 6 months drive each other batty. Both retired, one outgoing, friendly and likes getting out & about; the other  somewhat of a hermit and doesn't really have anything positive to say about anyone. {OMG! Do I see my future!!}  My obligations to my mom will cease when she moves, no longer will I feel the guilts if I don't see her and bring her favorite snacks when I visit. Usually, the only time she will phone me is when she needs something so I guess my aunt knows what she's getting into. It is all rather weird but I don't know why I should be totally surprised, she has always been secretive and will scheme behind your back to get what she wants without cause or thought to anyone else. Lovely, to say about one's mother but I've been caught in the middle a few times and had to answer to a lot of people about the things she has done. Oh, ya, Happy Mother's Day and all that.........lmfao.
     
    The toppings: Also last weekend, I awoke to find my 17 year old cat had died during the night and had to get through the day at work, thinking about her constantly and then deal with her rigored body when I got home.
     
    So may this weekend be a wee bit nicer {not too much to ask is it?} and all the 'laws-don't-mean-me-kinda people'  I have to deal with  will just take their 'just desserts' just like the rest of us. [Or I may just have to finish that bottle.]
    CHEERS!!!
    April 25

    bUZZ oFF kITTY

    :50am
    I was snoozing quite nicely until my cat vocalizes her entrance into my room  She begins to prance around playing with her ball; I turn over and try to bury myself deeper into my nice warm blankets. She leaves only to goof around on the stairway, up & down, up & down she goes with her ball. I hear roomie throw a few explitives at her from his room.
    2:33am
    My loving feline comes back into my room and drops her ball into my face. Not thinking too clearly, I heave the thing [the ball not the cat] across the room. Of course, she was all set for this unscheduled playtime and retreives the ball for another round. Wide awake from the ball hitting me in the face again and her little bites to my chin, I grab the ball and shove it under my pillow. Eventually, she leaves with a dissatisfied meow. I roll over onto my left side. I roll onto my back. Okay, maybe the right side is more comfortable.
    3:10am
    Some idiot owner is letting their dog bark to no end somewhere in the neighborhood. My mind starts to wander..............I think about my ychats with Isa & Jen........ I wonder if Florida is like Hawaii? ..........does Judy's cat wake her up at all hours to play?........Firefighters.......maybe I should just give up and go online? Then I hear roomie shuffle toward the bathroom, surprised he didn't run into the cat along the way. He sounds like a power nozzle spraying into a bucket.
    3:45am
    Cat comes back only to plop down on her side of the bed and promtly go to sleep. I'm wondering now if I should read my book, it usually stops my mind from wandering enough that I can sleep. I end up doing that inevitable math on how many more hours I have before I have to get up for work. Then I begin a coughing fit from the remnants of this blasted cold.
    4:20am
    I give!  I go downstairs, make coffee and watch CNN. Let the dog out and she doesn't seem too pleased to be getting up at this hour either. After 2 cups of coffee, I was quite comfortable on the couch enough, that I was starting to get sleepy & could barely keep my eyes open but of course----------yep, just in time to start draggin' my butt up stairs to get ready to for work! I'm wishing someone would come up with a way for a non-stop intravenous supply of Timmy's coffee.
     
    April 23

    My Weekend

    After work on Saturday, I came home to see my roomie surrounded by CD's, crumpled booklets and prophanity flying. He was given a PS2 from a friend after they had bought PS3, yeah, like how many of those things do you need. Not that we're real game-playin' fools, we thought the fact that it also plays DVD's was the bonus because the cheap player we have now won't let us view the extra features that come with DVD's. So, I joined him on the floor trying to figure out how to connect the thing. We got the games working, played a CD but everytime we tried to view a DVD the thing would flash the "parental control" pop-up. Seems we needed a password to watch the damn movie!! Okay, we usually can figure these kinda things out after spending some time, cursing a little and pressing a few buttons aimlessly. "Parental Access Code", my arse!! He stared to think the guy that gave him the thing was playing so sort of joke, knowing we wouldn't be able to figure out what this friggen code was. Were we just destined to watch "Mary Poppins"? We did and enjoyed it,btw! The booklets were no help as they didn't explain what all these buttons did. You would think 2 adults could figure out how parental controls work! We took a break, had a beer and laughed at our stupidity as anger built up again. PS2 will not defeat us!! Pressing a button here and following an instruction there, we were finally able to watch "The Good Shepard". Heaven help us, though because I'm thinkin' this will be a ritual for every damn movie we want to see! As for the movie...........meh, it was okay, not as great as I expected with all the hype about it.
    On Sunday I was expecting to be as miserable as I could be for my birthday because it reminds me of another year gone by that I haven't really accomplished much in the way of living a satisfying life. 'We are only here for a short time so we better make the most of it', kinda thing but when you have to make a living to get by how do you do that? I haven't made it to Italy yet, nor have a made a difference in Africa and haven't toured the rain forests before they are totally depleted/defeated. So I worked through "my" day yesterday and ruined a couple of other people's; hey, it's all part of the job! Anyway, my wonderful roomie is quite aware of how I feel about b-days so he took me out for a yummy dinner of seafood linguine, we came home and munched on chocolate eggs [would have been better if they were dark chocolate] and had a bottle of Little Penguin while we watch the Flames lose; we knew it was coming if not last night it would have happened in Detroit. What can I say......ummmmmm, go Vancouver!!!  There is a long summer of no hockey ahead and there is still a month to go so I gotta cheer for someone. OH, AND OMG!!!!!!!!!!  please don't let Don Wittman (Twitman)commentate anymore!! I don't think I could stand listening to him say "De-troy-it" one more time!!!!!!!!
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    Pooooooooooor Kipper, he just couldn't do it alone.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jvz99-Gnw_w
    April 09

    How Loud Can I Laugh

    Seems the bosses at work haven't bee impressed with their evening supervisor because he has phoned them after hours I little too many times about stupid things. (IE: Someone didn't flush a toilet in a restroom that was under constrution.) So I am being considered to replace him. Now, it's good that I'll get back to working eves but will I be getting back into the same rut I was before I retreated to Nowhere?
     
    Another tidbit: Sittin at home having a cup o' joe, trying to figure what my frickin' taxes when hammering  at the front door disturbs my swearing.
    "Need a roommate?"
    If it ain't my best-bud with his dodge truck in my driveway covered in mud & dirt that you couldn't recognize the color.  LMAO!!! Looks like my spare room ain't empty anymore.
     
    March 26

    My Weakly Blog

    Here are some mundane Monday ramblings: ****I'm working 2 p/t jobs, one of which sends me to take the train into the downtown core. That in itself is interesting sometimes, man I missed this town! Anyway, with a transit strike looming it could force me to drive my car and pay astounding daily parking rates.  My other job has me surrounded by unhappy men that are in the middle of contract talks and more strike-talk. Makes me think maybe p/t ain't so bad for now.  But I would like to get back into a night shift because I'm feeling I miss the best part of the days working inside, especially with warmer weather just around the corner.
    ***I watch CNN a lot, the repetative news story today is going to be Anna Nichole Smith, again.  She died of a drug overdose. [No! Really?] Canada has a news channel but I find that everyday seems to be a slow news day here because they keep repeating the same 4 stories. Which bring me to my bitch of the day................I wish Quebec would just hurry up and separate because I am so sick of hearing them whine about everything. Let them go on their own and see how they get along when they're faced with a crisis, without the rest of Canada to bale them out. {What am I saying? Canada will bale them out just like they help everyone else out, except of course, there own people!}
    **{sorry Jen, but.....} The Flames may pull it off my squeaking into the play-offs and can't help but root for ye'ole Canucks [except when they play us] especailly now that Bertuzzi is gone.
    *And finally, HEY!!  The thoroughbreds are in town!! The thoroughbreds are in town!!!
    March 09

    Yo! Ho! & A Bottle of Rum!!

    I'm settled in and have washer & dryer, I have a washer & dryer!!!!!!!! Also, my first day of internet, I couldn't get to my space at my mom's but------aye am back now! My third day here reminded me of one of the reasons why I left . My phony-christian next door neighbor spotted me and was all sweetness and flowers when really she was just nosey.  I gave her the: "don't have time got a run" excuse and exited the scene before her 20 questions. She is one to gawk out her window in judgement at her neighbors, talks behind their backs {never in kind words} and gossips though she seems to never leave her house except to pick up her unsupervised kids.  Funny she seemes to know what's going on in the neighborhood except doesn't see her little brat chucking mud at my house, swiping stuff from my garage or the garbage they leave in the frontyard. What happened to love thy neighbor?  She has put herself on a Christian pedistal, judges people and never goes to church. I'll be the first to admit I'm a lousy Catholic but I do show up at church every so often----------at least to ask forgiveness LOL!!!  I just have no time for phony people and 'christians' who seem to think the rest of us are sinners as they go through their days in snide judgement. Ahhhhhh, I'm back-----avoidance may be the key, if not--------------let the games begin!!!!  Other than that, I start my training tomorrow for a part-time job {just weekends} that has huge potential if I get to full time; can I spell pension. Loverly!!! Still need another part-time to suppliment and spend my time; thinking I'll get back into security again. Oh stop!! I know, it sounds like I'm getting into the rut I was in before but with a rekindled  attitude and only part-time.  What more can I say besides I'm back to surf & annoy!!!
     
     
                 MAN, I LOVE THIS GAME!!!!
     
    February 23

    Nit-Pik

    Man, have I missed you guys. And my gals. of course!  My bloggers, my support-system, thanks so much. (blushing and holding a flaming samuca up to ya)  I'm gritting my teeth, puttin a phony slap happy grin on my face and getting out of mommas house whenever i can. Seems I need to lose weight, yet I don't eat enough, I slouch when I watch t.v. {which is always her programs, No Hockey!! AAARRRGGGG!!!!!! she never settles on anything to actually watch just keeps flippin to avoid commercials}, I'm never around when she needs something. You know, most of us should have motherf*$#@#g E.S.P.!!!!  And what I do managed to do for her isn't correctly done. I didn't buy the RIGHT bread, I got the WRONG type of meat-----ummmmmm, does beef not tasted like beef no matter what frickin cut it is?!! I take it back only to find out it was the one she wanted in the first place! Somebody shoot me!!!  OMG!!! I am counting the days and I should be in my own house next weekend.
    My job interviews went okay, going back to one of them on Monday {fingers crossed}, one I decided myself that just ain't for me. I just don't have time for stupid people and the interviewer was an schmuck.  On that topic, I caught a couple of days of the Anna Nichol Smith hearing. Wholy crap!!  That judge was loopy!! Makes you wonder about the American justice system to let someone like that sit behind the bench; to think even judges can be taken in by media and stardom. But to weep because of a decision he made about where her remains go?  Never seen anything like it, he made Ito look like a professional. LOL  Well, I want to go surfing before the warden awakes and natters about that fact that I'm on here as she heads to her throne in front of her life-line----------the t.v.
     
    Thought o' the day: why would people have more invested in their vehicles than the place they live?  I drive by a rental complex almost everyday and in front of one unit there are not one but two Hummers. WTF? Don't ya think some of that money would be better spent on a house that will rise in value and not deplete year after year. Hey, I'm just sayin!!
    February 05

    Someone Hand Me My .30/30!!

    For those of you that say to people: "if you ever need anything give me a call" and when they call for help,  you can't be bothered,------------------------PISS ON YOU!!
     
     
     
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    My explanation, now that I've cooled off:: I asked a family member if I could crash at their place until I could move back into my house. They came up with every excuse in the book as they ummed and ah-ah-ed on the phone. All I needed was a couch for a couple weeks------even a floor. What do I have kooties?!!  Maybe it was a blessing because I think their kids would have driven me out of my mind! Not to mention I didn't really like them anyway. I was just a little desperate because my other alterative is staying with my mother!
    Yes, I will have to suck it up, the best I can.  Adrian, pass the tequilla!!!